Negative 60.."You GO short white girl..."

Okay, so I have been doing a lot of research about weight loss "DOs" and "DON'Ts" and quite honestly it is a bit overwhelming. And for anyone who reads this who feels the need to double check my frustration...well, good luck.

You see, I really want--and quite honestly need--to lose weight. Like 60lbs of weight. And I intend to do it in a healthy way so that I don't just have to start over when it comes back. I need to entirely reestablish habits, throw out the old and usher in the new. My obscenely ridiculous goal is 10lbs a month...and I feel like I will be disappointed every month, but I also know if I don't shoot high then I will aim low and my results will be a big fat blank space in time. So, here it goes. As of now, I weigh 199.7lbs. I am 5'2". Yeah, just a bit overweight. But it will change.

My goal is to reach 140 (Obviously, I am rounding up to 60 pounds, and if I accomplish my 59.7 pound goal I will most definitely be claiming a negative 60. Period.) My sister gets married in May, 2014. Therefore, by my goal I will lose 60lbs in 6 months. which would put me at 140 in March of 2014. Now, since I know I am aiming high, I then have until my sisters wedding to lose any excess (which I am hoping by that point wont be too much) weight by the time I walk the aisle as maid of honor.

Now, I know many people won't read this...BUT!! for those who do, I will be making a post that is strictly about this journey monthly with any progress and how I accomplished it, it is going to be one of the many things that motivates me to lose weight. I will be trying many HEALTHY method to lose, many exercises and dietary plans (not starving, not crash dieting, not Nutrisystem or Jenny Craig or Weight Watchers or any other commercial businesses. I am doing this on my own, with the good old reliable internet--which cannot lie ;)--as a source for ideas that I can improve upon). I will be testing things and seeing what works for me. And I will let you interweb users know how it goes. Who knows, maybe my progress will help someone else reach their goal.

Not this time, because I am thoroughly disgusted by my body, but at some points in the journey I will post pictures and perhaps at the end I will post a before and after...if I can muster up the guts.

It has taken a lot for me to be able to admit to my weight, and to put it on the internet, and I ask that anyone who does stumble upon this (especially if you know me personally) be kind because it has been my biggest insecurity since I initially gained weight when I broke my back. I am not a sensitive person...but I am about this, which is why I am taking a stand and changing my lifestyle and the way I feel in my own skin. If you don't have something nice then please, keep your typing away from my comments section...but if you have words of encouragement, advice, or personal stories of your own health journey, I would love to receive your comments. I need support, even if it is a random stranger who comments and says, "Mmmmhm, you go short, white, girl. You GO!"



Abate-to lessen in amount, degree, or intensity. To lessen or diminish.

 

Sincerely,

SamanthaMarie