Okay, obviously I haven't been sticking to my original post about weight loss. it has been a few months since I have posted about it, but honestly, with working 12-Hour graveyard shifts, getting a calling, church in general, helping my sister plan a wedding, and every other crazy day in the life I live....my own goals have been on the backburner. I don't get much time to read my scriptures or to work out. Practically none at all. I eat a TON of food, ALL the time, because I work in manual labor and I feel I am always hungry, like my body is yelling "FEED ME NOW OR I WILL MAKE YOU COLLAPSE AND GET FIRED!!!" I definitely eat for energy, but definitely not all the right things. Yet somehow over the past few months of completely ignoring my body and exhausting myself to no end, I actually lost weight. And over the holiday season too I might add.
I have been thoroughly frightened to go near a scale since October, so I didn't. But I finally gave in and weighed myself a week ago because there I was, staring at the scale...I HAD to know what kind of damage I was looking at. Crazy enough I was down 8lbs since the last time I had weighed myself! Today when I weighed myself I expected to be back where I started because I had yet another indulging crazy overeating week (I know, shame on me) but I was shocked yet again to find out I dropped another 4lbs...in one week! I have absolutely NO idea what I did this past week that was different, maybe ate a tad healthier, but no where near what I would think would create such results.
So, how in the world have I lost 12lbs? Honestly, I think it has something to do with the whole "manual labor" thing. I know for a fact I have gained muscle as well. I cant even imagine what my results will be when I dive back in to selfishly training myself as the woman I eventually want to be. When I figure out how to add a work-out plan to my hectic schedule. I Promise you though, I am already figuring it out, I even work-out at work a little (when I am on a slower machine though). I try to be in constant motion (partly so I don't fall asleep sometimes, because I really am exhausted some nights).
I am only going to weigh in once a month, on fast-Sunday, because I don't want to obsess over my weight as much as be impressed by my reflection in the mirror. I am not going to stop until I like the person I see and it is healthy and fit; I don't need to be super skinny, I just need to be healthy.
Abandon-To leave behind; relinquish.
Sincerely,
SamanthaMarie
